new year

haha.... i read some of ur guys blog and realize u all update it still...kinda....well.... its so fast.... new year.... time really goes by u.... i didnt really realize it.... until i really took time to take a step back..... yea....its 08 year now....not 07.... have to change all e stupid writing in e nursing notes and blah blah.... i think i have been in e ward for like 6 months plus.... still like a baby...or rather like a idiot that knows nothing.....tats wat i feel.....im not really given much chance to do in charge previous fews months and now.....i heard alot of senior staff are leaving.....alot of new staff are coming in.... haiz.... so far....e new staff are alright.... but.... stupid JCIA is coming again..... and im like a idiot + plus an idiot which needs to give correct answers to auditors.... maybe im abit stressed..... not as e cool and relaxed christina everytime in school.....i heard my colleague telling me relax~ den im like yea..... it really hit me tat i was abit gan chiong trying to finish my things while there isnt really anyone ''senior'' to help me....and it waas really out of no where..... but like e ''seniors'' will help much anyway.... i really wanna break.... i need a break.... hell man....
i wonder if my bf gives me stress also.....im starting to think this way.....he has some expectations...being his gf...i would really really aim to kinda be perfect for him...its impossible....im crazy i know.... ihis is a never ending question.....so many things to ponder now.... but time to sleep somehow...tml is morning shift....cursed hospital......hate work....bleah....i got a feeling im in charge again.... F.....not a nice feeling.....dun like it when i never do a job well also.....which in charge i constantly feel so.....